rock bottom

which is worse,
deep pain or abyss

the pain of not getting that which was so close to you,
OR the void that follows after achieving all that u wanted

the anguish of ambiguity, of feeling that there is still a chance,
of that roller coaster ride, that free fall from the acme of ecstasy to the nadir of deep anguish,
OR the drift along the same horizontal line into the deep black chasm of desperation